just in the hive with francessa watching these two guys stare at britany spears boobs in the criminal video … 

She was a locked up princess.
Her emotions all bottled up;
she never lived a normal teenage life.
She sat at home and looked out the window
and saw freedom so close yet so far.
She thought maybe one day shed be out there with no worries
just time to play.
This princess wasn’t into the book or going outside.
And when she was outside she was protected.
Sometimes shed wonder if shed ever live her life;
or stay locked up forever .
She didn’t know the answer but then again who did?
Would she be inside forever and never see the sun
or stay inside all night and never see the moon light shine bright?
She sat at home and thought all night wonder why they didn’t let her step foot
outside.
Then she began dreaming thoughts she didn’t want to believe.
They didn’t believe her stories and when she told a lie they believed
could she continue living like this …
Her prince wasn’t the price who they thought.
she thought and thought and wondered why she never met him
then she realized being locked up and alone.
cant let you find a prince
you have to run around and search the world to be able to find him.
The only prince she could see from her window was the one she didn’t want.
but since she talked to him she thought she might have to live with him.
Days passed and months went by she went to school and came back home.
sit sat here once again believing she would go outside.
But why the teen life isn’t supposed to be about living inside.
it’s the one time of the human life were you can become who you want to be
and not be alone in a world so cold.
She went on leading them thing she was happy to not be able to see her friend.
or even just smile without it being fake.
it was her time she believed she couldn’t do it .
and she was right she couldn’t live like this forever and finally gave up
the tears ran down her cheek and she whispered
“ if having fun leads to getting in trouble then why do other kids do it; If being at home all day with nothing to do then why dose everyone go outside daily”.
She blasted the music and went to bed then later that night she woke up and rose her head to see that last blind with an eye and went back to sleep .
and saw she could be outside forever in while fluffy clouds and had no problem.
The only problem she had now was she left the people who hurt her the most crying above her bed with a letter in her hands.
the letter read:
“ I tried to go by your rules and live up to your expectation. But what do you want from me?. Im just a normal human being . im sorry im not perfect and im trying to live my life. You might think am the worst thing ever but am not. IV never done anything you’ll make me regret nor have I ever disappointed anyone yet. And till this day I can’t continue living the way you want me to things change and life has to move on. I see everyday as a life to live but being inside is not the was am going to be raised. And if I brake the rules and get in trouble everyday. All ill say to my self is well what’s done is done and I cant change that fact. Beating and more beating everyday is what ill go thought just to see the light of day”.
-little girl who finally saw the moon.

truth is .. i miss you
and staring at my wall dosent help
i dont know if i did something wrong
or if you didnt even do anything …
it hurts to know that becuase of me she has you .
i dont regret it what so ever i mean
i guess it just the jealousy getting to me
im sure it happens to everyone.
if not ; then its hurting me
deep down i know we had our times
maybe ; just maybe i can forget about it
or not think time will tell ..
well hopefully.